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Share Something You Struggle With

I think I’m not alone when I say I struggle with anxiety. I think everyone in the world struggles with this at least once in their life.

Anxiety can manifest in many different ways, but for me it’s my writing. The thing I’m so proud and so passionate to share with the world turns into my worst nightmare.

‘You wrote a book – awesome but here is everything you could have done to make it better. Here are all the things that are wrong with it, or that are missing. You forgot to add this part, or make this character do as certain thing that would have made this scene so much better. Sure, you wrote a book… but for all you know it’s the worst book in the world.’

I’ve touched upon this touch many times before (Imposter Syndrome For a Writer & Keep Calm. It is only a First Draft), and this will probably not be my last post in regards to this subject because this is something I struggle with… and sadly will probably always struggle with.

I know even if by whatever happen-stance I become the next J.K Rowling, I will still think my work isn’t good enough. In truth, it probably isn’t. In truth, there will always be things that need to be changed… and I’m sure there are things Rowling wants to change about Harry Potter even to this day no matter the success she’s had in regards to that series.

Unfortunately I’m not Rowling, and all I can do is speculate that she went through the same writer’s anxiety I have.  Imagining my favourite authors suffering the same way I have has helped me push through and continue writing. To believe I’m not alone and to write/ share this in hopes of helping someone out there feeling the same way… letting them know they aren’t alone with these feelings also pushes me to post.

The more you write the better you get. I believe that and eventually I hope to get to the point where my anxiety won’t stop me from writing. That’s a struggle I have to live with until that day actually comes.