Search

Prophecy Six Blog

Sharing My Unedited Writing Experiences & Life Experiences.

Month

September 2016

Diary of a Socially Awkward Introvert: Parties

To you parties may sound like a fun word.

For me or anyone like me… it instantly raises our blood pressure.

Introverts aren’t the type of people that like to party or being in a group of strangers. We are people that want to Netflix with their best friends and eat junk food, or stay at home and play games online.

When an introvert is dragged out to a party they are doing it because:

One – they want to make a good impression on a friend.

Two – they want to get out of their comfort zone.

Three – didn’t know that they were going to be going to the party in the first place.

Social situations can be very tiring and stressful for an introvert, add in being socially awkward and you have yourself a panic stricken blubber ball.

When I somehow find myself at parties – usually dragged out of the house by friends – I do one of four things.

One – cling to my friend like a baby koala for the whole night.

Two – nervously talk your way through questions asked to you by strangers while trying to locate the friend that dragged you to the party.

Three – locate the food. No one will talk to you if you have food in your mouth.

Four – hang out with the pet of the house cat, dog, bird… doesn’t matter. (You know they won’t judge you).

My usually choice is three. There always something at the food table that I like and it is easy to ignore people when your back it facing the crowd and you are facing the food. It is also easier to play off people’s questions when you have a mouthful of food.

If – Gods forbid – a person catches you away from the food table and starts asking me questions I usually am able to stumble my way through a conversation with them. If a person expects me to start a conversation… well they will be waiting a very long time since while it may take them a second to think of something to ask me I’m running through hundreds of possible suggestions, each being reviewed for any possible negative responses, while my mind is preparing responses to those negative responses.

Fun? Not really. Stressful? Totally.

Another fun thing is when you finally settle on something to say and it comes out wrong. The joys of your cursing yourself as you try to recover the conversation as you notice the person you are talking to staring at you… possibly thinking what is wrong with this person.

Scurry away, back to the food table where you are safe little over-thinker. It will be okay.

Or, will it?

The chances are, that interaction will be playing over and over again in my head for the rest of the night. It will haunt my dreams and whisper in my ear while I’m drinking my tea at breakfast. I may even do mock conversations on how I should have responded to the person while in the shower before heading to work.

Am I crazy? Yep… but admitting it is the first step to recovery… right? ^.^

I am find with small interactions with people on the street. Someone asking for directions or asking the time are fine. I can even handle being in a small group of four people that I know. I’m part of several communities and volunteer… so I am not completely useless. I just know that after a long day in the office or working with my volunteer groups I will be tired.

While people go out to dance or party to boost their energy or cut loose… I read and write books.

So, when you ask one of your friends if they want to go out to party or stay in and watch a movie – consider that maybe their way of fun doesn’t include a lot of people and that wanting to spend time with you is a big step outside of their usual comfort zone.

Until next time stay safe, be creative and as always toodles!

Old Word Friday: MISQUEME

Hello World Out There World!

This week on OWF we are tackling a verb that was created around 1395 and lasted until 1658. This word lasted longer than the others I’ve shared with you all on my other posts and that might be because of what this word means.

Misqueme means to displease or to offend someone. This is a great word to use as there is an election coming up and this word will be a great replacement for the other rhetoric that has blown up on all the social media sites.

This weeks word is pronounced:

MIS – QUE – ME

Some examples of using this word in sentences are:

When Trump opens his mouth it is only a matter of time before he misquemes someone.

Or…

Hillary’s email scandal misquemed a lot of her supporters.

Or…

A lot of us are misqueme they don’t have another candidate to vote for.

Conclusion:

Do I want this word to come back? Sure, I can see it being a useful word. I also think it would add a new word to the rhetoric that we are hearing around the US election. I also like how it sounds when you say it, it is a very catchy word.

5 Star Review & Author Interview

Hello World Out There World!

So, it has been a while since I’ve had anything to share regarding my books and that’s why I’m happy to tell you that Child of the Light got another 5 star review. At the moment it have 4 stars on Goodreads, 4.5 stars on iTunes, 4.5 stars on Amazon,  and now 5 stars from Serious Reading. (No one has rated me on Smashwords or Kobo yet, so I couldn’t share my stats from them).

Mind is blown… cannot function…

Anyways, in all seriousness if you are interested in reading the review check out the link HERE.

Also, they posted an author interview with me HERE – if any of you want to learn a little more about me. I talk about what inspired me to write the series, my thoughts on mental health, and other interesting topics I have yet to share in my blog.

Thank you all! Thank you all who have rated my books and left reviews. I also want to thank all of those on my blog (old and new) for your continued support, comments, and likes. Prophecy Six is growing slowly but it wouldn’t be growing if I didn’t have any of you. 🙂

Until next time stay safe, get creative, and as always toodles!

Diary of a Socially Awkward Introvert: Compliments

The other day when I was sitting on the bus, heading home from a long day of work and a short stint of shopping, I noticed something bright blue out of the corner of my eye. As I turned I could see it was a young woman – probably close to my age – in a hijab sipping her coffee. The bright blue material matched her outfit really well and a part of my felt like I wanted to compliment her.

As I was about to open my mouth to say something, there came a voice, very faint in the back of my mind, “Don’t do it. She might think there’s something wrong with you.”

No, I think she would really like a compliment. Everybody likes compliments,” I retorted my own internal police but that didn’t stop them.

What if you stumble your words like you usually do with strangers, huh? Maybe she will take your compliment in a wrong way. Think about her position. She’s sipping her tea and relaxing… then you break that peace by talking to her. Don’t do it… it isn’t worth this list I prepared to deter you.” At that point my brain – being the jerk that it is – listed off a hundred scenarios making me settle back down into my seat.

I was given a second chance to complete the Compliment Quest when I reached my stop. It turned out the young woman in the beautiful blue hijab was getting off at the same stop. We were standing beside each other at the door, perfect time for me to say something but instead my mind was running hundreds of things I should say… rewording the compliment, figuring out ways to not come across as weird, preparing come-backs if the girl got upset.

We got off the bus and I crossed the street by 124d2gthe time my brain was satisfied with what I was going to say to her… but the opportunity was miss. She crossed the street and I was left cursing myself for being afraid to say anything while being plagued with the worry that she had noticed me staring at her and being given all the thoughts she may have been thinking about me staring.

Looking back at it now, I feel stupid for even overthinking that situation. Who would get angry at a compliment? No one, that’s who! Yet my brain decided to work overtime like it was the Enigma Machine trying to decode Nazi bombing coordinates.

The problem is I’m an amiable person… which means I’m not only a friendly person but I hate conflicts of all kinds. That means if there is potential for conflict I avoid it or try to help others avoid it at all cost. This also means that my brain considers the possibility of everything being a conflict and tries to come up with solutions to solving these possible, unrealistic, nonexistent conflicts… which sucks!

This problem doesn’t just occur when I want to say anything nice to someone but also when someone says something nice to me. First, I stiffen up because now someone is giving me attention and I hate being centred out. This engages my brain who is reminding me of my unnatural stance and it tells me that the person I’m talking to thinks I’m
strange for reacting that way… which makes me try to be calm which only makes me act weirder. Second, I have no idea what I’m supposed to say when given a compliment – which I’m trying to find an answer for while trying to act natural while trying to avoid upsetting the person that complimented me. My brain starts asking itself questions like: do I say thank you? And before I get the chance to say thank you my words are choked out by my brain’s answer: Wouldn’t thank you be too basic? And these thoughts just continue on facepalm-meme-17and on making a silence grow to an awkward length but I’m not paying attention to time because my brain is continuing it’s useless debate with itself. If I say no problem that would sound narcissistic or belittling to the person giving me the compliment. No reply would just be rude and smiling/nodding would just be weird. It is only after catching onto my complimenters body language do I realise I’ve made the situation awkward and from that point I spout out a very uncomfortable and not confident, ‘Thank you’. And if that’s just not cringe worthy enough I end it with a nervous laugh.

Be happy you aren’t in my brain. Be happy you don’t over analyse every social interaction you have with people. This is why introverts are tired after hanging out with a group and also why it takes something really important for them to leave the comfort of their home. Be glad you aren’t a socially awkward introvert… and if you are at least now you know you aren’t alone. 🙂

 

 

Dialogue Prompt: Special Kind

specialkindofidiot

“It takes a very special kind of idiot to pull off what you just did.” He shook his head in disbelief, as she just smiled maniacally at the flames lashing up into the night sky.

“They are pretty though, right?” Her voice sounding more like a child that had lit their first firework, not one who had set a whole block a blaze. He didn’t know who this girl was… but he had some idea that taking her into his care was one of the worst things he could have done for his sanity.

 

600 Followers!

Hello World Out There World!

It feels like just last week I was posting about how amazing you all are for following me and getting me to 500 followers… but now I’m at 600!

HOLY COW!!

I don’t know what I can possibly say or due to thank all of your for this amazing achievement. It feels like just yesterday that I started this blog but in reality it has been about a year. With all your amazing support I was able to publishing one book and now I’m working on publishing my second… and have been distracted with drafting book 3. XD

Thank you all so much and I look forward to sharing my stories/ experiences with all of you more once I’ve gotten things settled again. (Starting a new job and trying to create a new schedule isn’t fun. Adulting is hard – don’t grow up kids!)

Anyways, that’s all I wanted to share with you… well that and 4 months until book 2 – Children of Sirphan! I’m so excited and you all just made my day with this.

Remember to stay safe, get creative, and have fun – and until next time TOODLES!

Apple Sauce & Apple Cider Recipe

P1020316

It’s Fall!! I love fall so much. Not only does it have my favourite holiday – Halloween – but it is also filled with yummy comfort foods and cozy sweaters. So, to launch this fall season off I want to share with you my trick to making Apple Sauce and Apple Cider.

Enjoy!!

Prep time: 10-15 mins                     Cook time: 3 hrs                                   Total time: 3.5 hrs

Ingredients:

6-7 Apples (Royal Gala or Spartan)

4-5 Cups Water

1/4 Cup Sweetener (Brown or White Sugar, Honey)

2 Cinnamon Sticks

Items you’ll need:

1 Crock Pot

1 Glass bowl or pot

1 Cup measuring cup

1/4 Cup measuring cup

Knife

Potato Masher

Cutting Board

Spatula

Strainer

Jug and a glass jar (Mason Jar)

Instructions:

Chop and peel all the apples (6-7), place them in the crock pot with 1/4 cup of sweetener and 2 cinnamon sticks. Add the 4-5 cups of water until apple pieces are bobbing or there is a faint layer of water over the apples. Mix everything together in the crock pot before putting on the lid and setting the pot to high. Let cook for 3 hours, or until apples are soft enough to crush IMG_20141115_163307with a fork.

Once apples are soft enough, use a potato masher to press the apples into a pulp. Use strainer and glass bowl or pot to separate the pulp and liquid. Press pulp in the strainer to make sure as much liquid is removed as possible. Place pulp in Mason Jar.

You may have to strain the pulp and liquid 2-3 times until cider is clear of large apple pieces. Store apple pulp in Mason Jar and apple cider in a container of your choice, let cool before putting them in the fridge.

You have now made apple cider and apple sauce. Congratulations!

Makes: 1 large Mason Jar of Apple Sauce and 4-5 cups of Apple Cider.

Note: I was contemplating on adding this video but some of you may find it helpful… while I just find it embarrassing. That crock pot has died since I made this video and my hair is no longer that long. A lot happens in a year… but hey if one of you finds it helpful it is worth posting it. 

Gaitan Map: The Mountain City of Morza

Hello World Out There World!

I thought I’d share with you another update I’ve done to the P6 official website. As it is a canon site for the P6 world I try to update it with fun and interesting information that helps form a deeper connection between my readers and the series. So, here is my most recent update on one of the most mentioned cities in the P6 series so far – Morza! Click HERE to be taken to the main page about the history of these people.

Also some exciting news. Only four months until book 2 is out!! Super excited about that. Anyways, enjoy. 🙂

 

Thinking Thursdays: Teach Social Innovation/ Change

I remember when I first heard the word non-profit.

I was around six years old and we were given a box to wear around our necks at Halloween to collect change while we trick-or-treated. Most people gave us pennies (when pennies were still around), or didn’t give change at all.

The second time I heard about non-profit was when I was eight. We were doing a pop tab drive, collecting the tabs to make wheelchairs for kids that could afford them and bikes for kids in third world countries.

As a kid it felt good to be part of something that was created social change in some way. Those pop tabs I collected or those pennies I was given would lead to helping someone I never knew and would likely never meet. On my own time I looked into what these programs were and what they did. I kept reading the word non-profit on their websites, alongside the list of their values, mission statements, and vision – but never did I learn about what they were from schools.

Later on in high school when we all think we are smarter than our teachers and we start realising the world isn’t this shiny, perfect place like our parents would have a believe my opinion changed about non-profits. For a short time – mostly from wanting to be liked among my peers – my opinion about non-profits were that all they wanted was money. They weren’t really helping people like they said they were. They are frauds. They are money hungry. They don’t do anything.

I now know – at 25 years of age – that my teenage self was stupid.

The world was not just black and white – that indeed there were these grey sections trying to tip the scale to better the lives of those in poverty, abuse, war. That there were people in the world that realised how much it sucked and were trying to make our future and the future for others better than the last.

I don’t blame my younger, ignorant self for think what she thought. There was computers where I could explore my ideas further, or libraries filled with books that could have corrected my opinion. I had teachers that ran clubs in our school focused towards social justice but there was never a class nor a lesson that covered what those words actually meant. At an age between 13-18 you feel like you can’t make a difference but if you were given a chance to help the world – even if it’s collecting pop tabs – they may have a different opinion of the world.

So, this is what I propose.

At the young age of six get your children involved with a world issue – environment, social… etc. – let them learn first hand about how one person can effect the balance.

At an older age teach them about non-profits or other charitable organisations in the world. For Canada, teach the history of social change and innovation by telling the events that took place in the 80s where Canadians came together and saved South Moresby, BC from deforestation. Show them that there can be light in a world so filled with terrible events, fears, and death.

But most of all, teach your kids that there is always hope. That by taking the paths before them that they have choices that could effect the world. That if they knew more about how to change the world, than maybe one day we will live in a better one.

Anyways, that’s all I have to say. Do you agree or disagree with my rant? Let me know in the comments below, and until next time have fun, stay safe, and change the world for the better. 🙂

If you are interested in learning more about non-profit and charity I suggest the best place to start is watching this video from TEDTalk. It has helped me open my mind and question what we’re doing in this world.

 

Powered by WordPress.com.

Up ↑