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Not Going to Write Itself

So, this popped up on my Pinterest today and I had to chuckle.

For the last week and a bit I have been reblogging or posting recipes but when it comes to actually writing I have been in a funk. This could be due to the fact I just powered through making all the changes I needed for my final draft to hand it off to my editor to spit and polish, or the fact that I have no idea what to share with all of you.

I’ve been doing a lot of research on book marketing and growing my ‘author’s brand’ so my head hasn’t been on the creative side but on the business side of being a indie-author. This of course has filled my mind with possibly starting a podcast or YouTube channel, which led me to watching/listening to already established authors’ channels, which in the end filled me so impostor syndrome that caused me to curl up in the fetal position and question why I torture myself.

The biggest issue I have is comparing myself to people but the other issue I have is doubting my own abilities. I want to post about my writing experiences or how to come up with characters but I see other more skilled authors doing that… leaving me thinking that maybe my posts are pointless. Maybe I’m afraid of rejections… and sure I’ve published one book and I am about to publish a second book in December but I still feel like I’m not good enough. XD

So, yeah all that doubt and impostor syndrome led me to hiding away for a week until this popped up on my Pinterest. All my thoughts I’ve been thinking about, the third book I’ve been playing out in my head but not writing down, these ideas I have for posts that I’m doing nothing with… they aren’t going to write themselves if I don’t get my butt in gear. Hence this post… which is hopefully the beginning of getting back to my blogging…

I also just realized it has been a while since I posted a Pinterest Writing Quote on here… maybe I’ll bring those back.

Anyways, until next time stay safe, be creative and as always toodles! 🙂

Diary of a Socially Awkward Introvert: Compliments

The other day when I was sitting on the bus, heading home from a long day of work and a short stint of shopping, I noticed something bright blue out of the corner of my eye. As I turned I could see it was a young woman – probably close to my age – in a hijab sipping her coffee. The bright blue material matched her outfit really well and a part of my felt like I wanted to compliment her.

As I was about to open my mouth to say something, there came a voice, very faint in the back of my mind, “Don’t do it. She might think there’s something wrong with you.”

No, I think she would really like a compliment. Everybody likes compliments,” I retorted my own internal police but that didn’t stop them.

What if you stumble your words like you usually do with strangers, huh? Maybe she will take your compliment in a wrong way. Think about her position. She’s sipping her tea and relaxing… then you break that peace by talking to her. Don’t do it… it isn’t worth this list I prepared to deter you.” At that point my brain – being the jerk that it is – listed off a hundred scenarios making me settle back down into my seat.

I was given a second chance to complete the Compliment Quest when I reached my stop. It turned out the young woman in the beautiful blue hijab was getting off at the same stop. We were standing beside each other at the door, perfect time for me to say something but instead my mind was running hundreds of things I should say… rewording the compliment, figuring out ways to not come across as weird, preparing come-backs if the girl got upset.

We got off the bus and I crossed the street by 124d2gthe time my brain was satisfied with what I was going to say to her… but the opportunity was miss. She crossed the street and I was left cursing myself for being afraid to say anything while being plagued with the worry that she had noticed me staring at her and being given all the thoughts she may have been thinking about me staring.

Looking back at it now, I feel stupid for even overthinking that situation. Who would get angry at a compliment? No one, that’s who! Yet my brain decided to work overtime like it was the Enigma Machine trying to decode Nazi bombing coordinates.

The problem is I’m an amiable person… which means I’m not only a friendly person but I hate conflicts of all kinds. That means if there is potential for conflict I avoid it or try to help others avoid it at all cost. This also means that my brain considers the possibility of everything being a conflict and tries to come up with solutions to solving these possible, unrealistic, nonexistent conflicts… which sucks!

This problem doesn’t just occur when I want to say anything nice to someone but also when someone says something nice to me. First, I stiffen up because now someone is giving me attention and I hate being centred out. This engages my brain who is reminding me of my unnatural stance and it tells me that the person I’m talking to thinks I’m
strange for reacting that way… which makes me try to be calm which only makes me act weirder. Second, I have no idea what I’m supposed to say when given a compliment – which I’m trying to find an answer for while trying to act natural while trying to avoid upsetting the person that complimented me. My brain starts asking itself questions like: do I say thank you? And before I get the chance to say thank you my words are choked out by my brain’s answer: Wouldn’t thank you be too basic? And these thoughts just continue on facepalm-meme-17and on making a silence grow to an awkward length but I’m not paying attention to time because my brain is continuing it’s useless debate with itself. If I say no problem that would sound narcissistic or belittling to the person giving me the compliment. No reply would just be rude and smiling/nodding would just be weird. It is only after catching onto my complimenters body language do I realise I’ve made the situation awkward and from that point I spout out a very uncomfortable and not confident, ‘Thank you’. And if that’s just not cringe worthy enough I end it with a nervous laugh.

Be happy you aren’t in my brain. Be happy you don’t over analyse every social interaction you have with people. This is why introverts are tired after hanging out with a group and also why it takes something really important for them to leave the comfort of their home. Be glad you aren’t a socially awkward introvert… and if you are at least now you know you aren’t alone. 🙂

 

 

Write Like It Matters

Hello World Out There World!

Wow… it has been a while since I posted. I missed two Thinking Thursdays and two Old Word Fridays… I’m such a terrible person…

At the moment I’m trying to settle into a new routine which has really buggered up my writing time. Normally I can write in the morning or the evening but when I get around to it now I’m either too tired or unmotivated to attempt writing anything on this page.

I’m sorry to say that at the moment my writing has taken a back-seat to my current life situation and yes, that is a problem. I’m trying to fix that as fast as I can because writing is very important to me. It helps me escape and helps me explore new ideas. Writing matters a lot to me.

As bloggers yourselves writing probably plays a big role in your lives as well. What we write and share with the world matters in some way. It may matter to a few readers or just to us but we wouldn’t have written something on an online platform if it didn’t have meaning. That’s the same with writing a book or short story. Somewhere inside us told us that this story was important and needed to be shared. You crawl at the words and climb up those paragraphs in hopes of finding out why your soul has chosen this story of all your story ideas to be shared. Somewhere inside you you knew that what you were writing mattered.

At least that’s how I feel when approaching my series. There is something special about it. I’m not just writing for the heck of it but because something I’m writing, let it be the characters or the themes, are important and need to be shared.

So, I will try to get back to a more regular schedule now and hopefully I’ll be able to post more for all of you to enjoy.

Until next time – toodles!

Writers I know you can relate

Hello world out there world!

Pinterest and I have a love hate relationship. I love it because it helps me find fun ideas, or prompts, or resources which I can explore/ learn more when it comes to the world of becoming a professional author. I hate it because when I should be working on my stories, editing, or researching certain aspects/ themes I instead look up DIY projects and funny Supernatural quotes.

Pinterest is both a great resource and the worst procrastination tool in my life.

Sometimes though I find something that relates so well to my life that I just have to share it with all of you. I know I’m not alone. There have been many followers that have mentioned this pain we call procrastination. This bane on our creative existence can come in many forms but whatever it is we all know that when it hits we are not going to get anything, I REPEAT ANYTHING, done.

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So, since you have read this and now know you are not alone, I hope this post was able to make you laugh or at least smile. 🙂

And until next time, toodles!

Procrastination & Distractions

I sit on this kitchen chair at my makeshift desk that seconds as my kitchen table in front of the second hand computer that is more powerful than any other piece of technology I’ve ever owned. My feet are falling asleep inclined on another chair as my headset is sitting on my head. Part of me wonders why I have my headset on my head… I’m not listening to anything but I guess it is more out of habit than anything else.

I take a deep breath, stare at this large screen and glance apathetically up on the three tabs open on my internet bar. One is this post. The other two open to files that are being edited by my editor. There is a sinking feeling in my stomach… one I get when I know I should be doing something productive but instead everything inside me is telling me to do the opposite.

Facebook could have an update. Your friends could be talking about Pokemon Go and you could be missing out. Come on, that one major part of your childhood – the first thing that taught you how to be a fan. I contemplate for a moment knowing all too well I have little self restraint and open another tab to my Facebook a moment later.

Hitting refresh three times in a row, doesn’t cause any major changes. I have friends who got the game and are somehow gym leaders now, while others are cursing their cellphones for not having enough space with all their selfies and food pics. I just sigh, close the tab and go back to staring at this blog.

Maybe some music would help? It has been a while since I used YouTube for music and not to watch idiots film themselves setting themselves on fire or complain about how hard life is as they drink their 10 dollar coffee while typing away on their 600 dollar phones. Yes, life is hard but we could be working in the fields fighting to survive like our ancestors. Sometimes I think like would be better that way. It would force responsibility. It would force purpose instead of wasting all hours of a day staring at a screen that we plug in next to us while we sleep and play games while we use the loo.

No, I’m not British. Yes, I use a lot of weird slang and for those who don’t know slang is short for Short Language. Mind blowing isn’t it. It blew my mind at least.

Anyways, while I continue to procrastinate the thought of having to do something productive hasn’t disappeared. The tabs at the top of the pages flicker like boats in the night drawing my eye to them every couple of minutes. They are starting to become annoying like Navi from the Legend of Zelda.

“Hey, listen!”

But I digress… if I continue to ignore them I will continue to be distracted and it will be a never ending circle. I should do some editing. That is the right thing to do but my phone just buzzed telling me a friend replied to a comment I made on one of their pictures and my drive is lost.

Maybe I’ll edit after I reply back…

I Didn’t Mean For This To Happen!!

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I love going online and finding things that are so relatable from all sides. This comic is from taptasic and by a very talents artist by the name of Anti-Social Media (click their name to be transported to the original page).

Now, I don’t normally post comics unless I have a good reason. The reason for posting this is because I relate to it as not only the reader but also the creator. When I write I want to invoke emotions in my readers and try to make it as positive or entertaining as possible. Sometimes… though… it backfires. Parts I think are funny may not be for my readers and some parts I love may invoke a different emotion than I originally intended. Everyone is different as therefore will react differently to what you write.

I know in the past I have read pieces meant to be humorous and cried my heart out. There were parts in books that were supposed to provoke me to cry that I laughed through. You can try to predict a readers view of your work but at the end of the day we are only guessing…

I guess that’s why I like this comic so much as you may not mean for something to happen but at the end of the day your readership may still enjoy it.

 

Writing Tip: Make Sure the Character Feels It

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I cannot stress how important this is.

If I’m reading a book and the main character or even support characters aren’t affected by the death of a group mate/ close character I lose interest. Not because it is bad writing… just because it doesn’t reflect the main characters relationship. If you spent the majority of the book  or books building a relationship with a character that is then killed off that main character – if they had been a real person – would react.

This doesn’t just cover killed off characters. A character can be badly hurt, captured… what have you and if the main character doesn’t react to the situation you’ve lost me. Sorry but unless your main character is a heartless robot who doesn’t give two bulls about anything, then your character must show some emotions.

A good example of using a death to motivate the main character is Katniss and Rue from the Hunger Games. My Gods that was a great way to use death to motivate and Katniss’s reaction was natural. Rue’s death pushed Katniss to beat the game, defy Snow, and in the end led to the whole rebellion. Rue set the fire and Katniss let it burn until it couldn’t be contained by the Capital any longer.

I’m sure there are other great examples of death and motivation out there but KatRue just stood out in my mind.

So, yeah… moral of this rant – make sure your main character reacts to the death of an innocent character…

 

Nightmares of Editing

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Editing.

Ugh… editing.

No, matter how much I love writing there are parts of it that irk me. I’ve done the easy part of writing the damn thing but now I have to go back to make necessary changes. This could be sentence structure, story flow, grammar, punctuation… and if you read my blog posts – which I tell you right now I don’t really edit – I need help in all of those listed.

Sometimes it’s funny when I re-read a section of my book and know exactly how my mood was.

“Ah, yes… chapter 5 and 6 must have been the days I got a proper amount of sleep. 7 to 10… was I writing drunk… I really need to stop that…”

So… yeah… necessary changes are necessary for my final written product.

Editing I understand is important. I was the kid in school told to edit my work all the time and didn’t… which could have meant a grade upgrade from a B average to a A average… but I know kids don’t listen to their teachers. I’ve been a teacher and you can go blue in the face trying to get a kid to listen to you but if they choose not to… well good luck. I would like to call that Karma by the way.

Now, with my focus at the moment on creative writing and self-publishing my work I have to pay attention to the process I dreaded all my life. Editing could change an okay book into a best-seller. Editing shows you’ve put time and effort into making sure your book reads well and flows well for your readers.

It took me 10 years but I appreciate editing even though I still hate it.

I honestly can’t believe this will be the second book I’ve written in less than a year that has entered this process. I actually can’t believe I’m willing to put myself through this torment for a second time…

Editing is pain people. It will all pay off in the end. When I am holding book two in my hands I will forget all the re-writing and re-reading that needed to be done to hold the final product. I’m also excited to think what you all think of the second book…

In truth – and I may be bias – I think the second book is better written and has more action. The characters are developed better and I think there is more suspense compared to book one… actually I know there is more suspense than book one. Liora is going to kick butt this book and gain new friends along her adventure.

Anywho, I have to go back to the dungeon of editing before I can send it off to be reviewed by my editor. Yes, I pre-edit my stuff… if I’m comfortable to send it to him that means it is close to being comfortable enough to get published.

That’s all for now.

Toodles. 🙂

 

Writing Prompt: Didn’t See Me

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